FML

i do not want to go to bed
i do not want to get up in less than 6 hours and get dressed and drive to work
i do not want to spend all day at work bored and annoyed (being bored makes generally tolerable people absolutely obnoxious)
i do not want to sit in horrible traffic on the way home and obsess about how god damn motherfucking long it takes to get home
i do not want to come home at 5, tired and without the will to do anything productive and then realize i'm just tired because i spent all day excruciatingly bored and i'm tired because i spent a ton of energy being absurdly pissed off at the traffic

instead i want to stay up late and wake up mid-morning and take dog to the park and then maybe, like, go to a museum or go bowling or something. and then i'd like to go to class. i miss my life from two years ago. i really need to figure my shit out, right? there's got to be a way to not be miserable 5 days out of 7.